Tuesday, December 21, 2010

dissappoited

he went Taiwan today!!!! 31 Dec then only he'll back!!! oh my god..................10++days we cannot interact..................T~T

Monday, December 20, 2010

feelings

he had promised me before this that wanna sms me everyday. now, he didnt sms me. T~T i thought he just forgot, so i also dont want to sms him, wanna test when did he want to sms me. however, few days later, still dont have any message by him. i cant afford anymore, so i sms him. i asked why he didnt sms me, he just answered me "forgot", "i just think to sms you just now, but its already 1 something, i scare i'll disturb you to sleep", and so on. i had received this kind of answers few times already, he didnt ever take care of my feeling also!! sometimes he will didnt reply me suddenly me when we're sms-ing. we never sms more than 10 messages. i think he didnt like me anymore, so he will forget me, didnt take care of my feelings and treat me perfunctory. T~T i had asked him why he do so, what happened, why didnt him tell me straightly, he will just dont reply sms. the messages that he didnt reply me are more than the messages he replied me. i dont know what happened now. arghhhh!!!!!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Arghhhh!!!

I'm typing the things we did at ziyu's house just now, and suddenly pop out a thing: "Microsoft Word has stop working, restart Microsoft Word?" I thought it will be okay after a while so I just ignored it and clicked to another window and do other thing. I came back after few seconds, THE WHOLE MICROSOFT WORD WINDOW VARNISHED!! So, I went to reopen the files I saved before because I thought what I typed will be there, once open, NOTHING!!!!!!!! Oh my god!!!!!!! I typed very long you know!!!! It just disappeared like that!!!! Uh, I gave up, I just delete the whole files and decided to not to write it anymore. What the hell!!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

confession

finally he confess to me. although i considered we're coupling, but i still never accept him properly, or i should say, he never confess to me properly yet. at yesterday 11.11.2010 23.51pm, he confessed to me.

"i have something wanna ask you,"

"what's that?"

"do you like me??
A. yes, i like you
B. i wanna be your girlfriend
C. i wanna be with you
D. all of above" he asked.

"what!? you're so cunning," actually i already choose D once i finished his message. but i'm shy to answer him straight away.

"please answer me properly,"

"E"

"ohh!! i forgot the option E,
E. i like you and i wanna be your girlfriend,"

"you didnt write option E just now!!"

"i forgot it just now."

"so, where are you sincerity?"

"*sincerity* this is my sincerity."

"well, so, *answer* this is my answer."

"ohh, ok. then goodnight." how disappointed am i on that moment u know!!

"huh?? gave up already?? goodnight then." actually i want him to say "no no no!! i wanna know the answer immediately!!".

"i give you some times to consider. tell me the answer tomorrow." this is what he answered.

"ohh, ok. goodnight then."

what the hell is him. actually what the hell am i. i want him to want my answer, but i'm shy to answer him. arghhhhh. what i'm doing now.

well, he sms me few minutes ago.

"what is your answer?"

"E" i decided to tell him now. i scare he'll feel sad because i'm not willing to answer him.

"what is E?"

"its okay if you had forgot it." i know he knew it.

"is that what i sent you yesterday night?"

"what else?"

"can you just tell me you like me? i wanna excited for a while."

"i like you. actually this kind of words should tell each other face to face although i know i will cant say it out on that time." actually i'm dreaming how should i tell him already. haha.


WE TALKED SOMETHING ELSE AFTERWARDS.


but i feel little bit guilty you know. we shouldn't coupling at this age after all. however, i cant control my feeling and i just want to be with him the next second. arghhhh.

Monday, December 6, 2010

boring life

holiday is totally boring, waste time thing. before this, i like holiday very much, i'll appreciate it very much even its only 1day. now, i hate holiday. i dont want holiday. even 1day. i hope tomorrow is school day and i can go to school already. let me tell you how my life boring is.

1. wake up at 12.30pm.

2. go brush teeth, face and then carding my hairs.

3. watch tv until whenever before i have work to do.

4. my turn to use computer.

5. play computer until midnight, sometimes 2am, sometimes 3am, even 4am.

6. go sleep then wake up at 12.30pm the next day and then repeat.

what a boring life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

midnight messages

yesterday, he didnt sms me at normal time. i think he forgot it again, so a bit sad. after played computer, i went into my room to get bed. its about 2am already, and i need to wake up at 7.30am next morning to attend my violin class, i'm so unbelieveable, isn't it?? haha. although its 2am already, but my family still havent sleep yet. yeah, we're owl, i admit. i lay on my bed, and turn my body here and there, cant sleep. 2.26am, a message came. i didnt set my phone to silent mode, so my phone rang loudly. i'm almost sleep already, so i'm lazy to see who sent the message and what is it about. however, i still go to take it, because i thinked maybe its him. look at my phone carefully, its really him!

"sleep already?"

"yeah, why are you not sleep yet?"

"oh. sorry for disturbing you. i dreamed i forgot to sms you today so i sms u now. nothing already, you can go to sleep now."

"really?? ok, then good night." although i'm very sleepy and i gonna wake up early in the morning next day, but i still dont wanna end it.

"of cause its real. good night."

"then i wanna reward you. muack!" this is the first time i do this flirty thing to him, he had did it to me before, but i just haha and didnt reply him same thing. i hesitate very long before i click the "send" button.

"ohh!! you make me cant sleep. so i also want. muack!"

"tomorrow i still need to play violin u know. if i cant play well, u gonna teach me."

"arghhh. i cant effort already, i'm so sleepy."

"ok. then good night."

END. it ended at 3am.

i never think he will still sms me at the midnight. i think he'll forget it or just let it be although he remember it suddenly. a bit touched, haha. however, if its me, i wont sms him. i scare it will disturb him to sleep and i'll explain to him the next day. by the way, i dont care, as long as he has sms me.

Friday, December 3, 2010

he phone me!!

HE PHONE ME JUST NOW!!!! at 00:59 03-Dec-2010
by the way, its not so suprise cause he told me that he have something wanna tell me, want me to phone him, but i refuse him because, this is our first phone call, impossible is girl phone first right~(actually can, but i dont want XD) maybe he take this to ridicule me 1 days. i think he wont do that, but i still dont want. haha

(I TRANSLATE MYSELF, JUST ALMOST THAT MEANING, NOT TOTALLY SAME.)
first call,
"hello," he said.

"hello," i said.

"i hesitate very long whether i should call you or not,"

"because of what?"

"errrrrr,"

"huh?"

"i called you,"

"yeah, i know,"

"so....goodbye,"

"o.....goodbye,"

after that he sms me. he said his heart was bleeding, so he cant continue the call just now. i asked why. he said, its very expensive, his phone gonna no credit already. T~T he reluctant to call me because its very expensive. why he cant just call me because wanna hear my voice no matter how many it charge!? he care it! he could just didnt sms or call me because of it spend a lot. T~T anyway, still feel very happy. i heard his voice!! and i think this is the first time he chat to me about our topic. we never say anything when we meet. just peep at each other and move away our sight when it meet. we had talked, but its just about, when is our class, your book pass already or not and so on, but only few times, not more than 3times. and he said if i'm the one who call him, he'll talk longer. i asked him to wait, and i went to my father's room to take his phone to call him. dont know why, i didnt hear the sound of "du...du...du...", but straight away heard his voice.

"hello,"

"erm,"

"............" we talked something, but i forgot.

"you dont disconnect the call first, i have something gonna show you. dont disconnect it, wait me."

"......................" i just wait him, i thought he'll play songs or sings for me.

after few seconds.......

"your phone has many credit? why you still didnt disconnect the call??"

"you said you wanna show me something then only i didnt disconnect it!"

"i just cheat you. i tought you'll disconnect it. you're so obedient," he was a bit excited.

"well, u asked me not to disconnect it, i'll obey and wont do so," i admitted.

"good then. ok, then i wanna award you something as you're so obedient,"

"what's that??"

"a kiss,"

"what!? who want your kiss. " actually i want it.

"muack. hear it?"

"huh?" i heard it, but not so confirm. i thought its noise.

"muack. can u hear it??"

"oh, ya, i hear it."

"ermm, good. "

"...................." actually i'm very happy on that time.

"do you wanna sleep already?"

"err, not yet,"

"oh, ok,"

"......................"

"why dont you ask me do i wanna sleep already or not?"

"erm......... well, do you wanna sleep already?"

"ya, i wanna sleep already," he laugh.

"ooh, ok, then, goodbye,"

"goodbye,"

after few seconds........

"goodbye,"

"haha. we said a lot of goodbye but still didnt disconnect the call yet." i laughed.

"ok then, goodbye,"

few seconds again...........

"you disconnect it first," i asked him.

"ok, goodbye,"

du...............

the call ended. it spend about 4 minutes.

i dont know why, i have nothing to say. i just wanna hear his voice carefully. however, he also keep quiet when i'm keeping quiet. so our call has many blank time. we both didnt say anything. after few seconds then only he'll say something, but i just answer him with a short answer, cause i wanna hear his voice, if i talk, i cant hear his voice. the call is quite nice, for me, i dont think its so for him, cause i always didnt say anything. anyway, still happy, our FIRST call. XD

Friday, November 26, 2010

quite happy day

Today is really a quite happy day, I mean until this moment, because of 2 reasons.

1. I wake up at 9 something this morning, very early for me as i wake up at around 12.30pm every morning, actually considered as noon already. Normally, i'm impossible to wake up this early, and i did it today. Nothing wrong, just because of my mom say my aunt gonna go back to Pulau Langkawi tomorrow. She asked us to accompany her to go market and she wanna pick some trousers as she need to work not long after this. So, i think i should accompany her because she will not longer here already. Actually she just go back there 3days 2nights only, not long. She will come back at this Monday. Anyway, i still "earn" something after 2 hours we stayed together. I GONNA GO TO LANGKAWI WITH MY AUNT TOO THIS SATURDAY!!! XDXD wakakakakakakak~~ So, maybe i won't update my blog in this period, because maybe there has no laptop or no chance for me to surf internet. T~T Anyway, still very hope for that trip. Although maybe i will not go to anyway except my aunt's house. At least i'm not staying in my own house, and i like the feeling stay in car. I'll have chance to stay very long in car this time. However, still little bit sad because maybe i will not have chance to online, and if dameinv or cheche online in the period, means i'll miss it!!!!!!!!!! haihh

2. Dameinv online today!! I meet her!!! She had replied my comments on her wall!!! However, when i go say hi with her, she didnt reply me. T~T Anyway, i'm still very happy~~ She replied me~~ its enough for me now. hahaha XD By the way, still a bit sad now. I wait so long for her online, but i missed to chat with her, dont know when is our next meet. I think maybe 10 or 15 days after this. T~T Anyway, never mind. SHE REPLIED ME!! XD

郑重介绍!!第三次开张!!XDXD

唉....我这个没恒心的家伙,一直懒惰写~
搞到现在,竟然到第三次开张了~~~
哈哈哈哈 ~~
但是还是不能保证它会不会有第四次开张的机会~~
希望不会啦~呵呵~XD

忘了提醒大家,
为了让我的英文进步些,有时我会用英文写~
或者同一篇有两种语言写~~
但是会有很多语法上的错误啦~
就拜托大家指导指导了哦~

Sunday, November 21, 2010

long time no write post already~~

haha~~long time no write post already~
actually i'm lazy to write it la~
lazy to think what should i write, lazy to rearrange what had happened~~
and an important reason is, i have nothing to write right now~
so, i'll write whenever i free, whenever i'm in good mood, whenever i'm hardworking to do all that i mentioned just now that i lazy to do~~
hahaahahah
XD

Saturday, May 1, 2010

溺水..怕怕~~

昨天朋友约我今天下午去CRC游泳..
我答应了她..
所以今天下午就去CRC游泳..
刚开始下雨..
所以就不能去游..
不久后雨停了..
我们就直接下去游了..
刚开始就只有我和我朋友两个罢了..
但是不久后就陆续有很多人来了..
全部都好像很厉害游的..
因为技术又不是很好..
所以不好意思在他们面前游..
就和朋友沿着边(因为边有得踏和有一条沟可以勾住的)慢慢游过去对面(远的对面,中间很深的..不是有跳板那边..)
平时也是酱游..
没有事的..
我们从靠近小池那边游过去..
顺利游过了..
原本想再游回去然后就回了的..
所以就游咯..
开始时朋友先游..
我因为在后面弄眼镜所以比她迟一点才开始..
开始时还ok的..
到差不多要到比较浅那边的时候..
就有一点不是很有力,而且不够时间吸气了..(技术不是很好)
就开始想要靠去边那边休息一下..
哪里知道还没有到边的时候就不能了..
整个人突然溺水..
开始往下沉..
紧张了当然是就乱挥动手脚咯..
所以就越挥动越往下沉..
我当时也有想到要把手往下推..
身体就会向上..
不知道为什么..
应该是紧张,所以挥错方向了..
所以身体一直上了又下沉回下去..
也有想到不可以紧张..
所以我试图冷静下来然后向前游去踏到浅的地方然后站起来..
可是因为一直呼吸不到..
还是紧张回..
所以就游不到..
就打算踢水让身体向上..
然后喊我朋友..
可是向上了..
喊了她的第一个名..
还来不及喊第二个名就沉回下去了..
因为一直想喊和呼吸..
所以嘴巴就开着..
一沉下水就喝了很大一口水..
我知道应该喊不到她了..
但是我还是一直喊..
然后再把手举起来..
拼命发出叫声来引起别人的注意好让他们来救我..
在里面挣扎了应该是差不多十几秒..
可是我觉得我好像在里面很久..
要不能顶,要死了..
突然就有一只手从后面把我从水里拉出来..
然后一直用手把我的头抬得高高..
不让我在沉进水里..
我一得到空气就拼命贪婪的呼吸..
大口大口的吸气..
然后他应该是把我拉到旁边去了..
就有人从上面一把把我拉上水来..
我一上岸就立刻拼命大口呼吸..
然一直把鼻子里的水和鼻涕弄出来..
流了很多鼻涕..
然后再用池边的水把它冲干净..
又一直吹大风..
吹得我一直瑟瑟发抖..
然后跑来的帮忙的uncle就叫我去旁边坐..
不要太靠近水池..
我朋友因为也不是非常厉害游泳那种..
但是还是会游过我..
所以就在旁边等我..
因为旁边有很多人..
哭出来好像不是很好..
所以我就一直压抑着情绪不哭..
但是还是忍不住流了一点眼泪..
大概一分钟后..
我就站起来走向我朋友..
站起来拿起刹那头很晕..
感觉四肢无力..
但是我还是撑着走到我朋友那里..
她一看我靠近她就立刻问我还好吗..
我还是勉强地说没事..
强忍着大哭的情绪..
和她走去楼梯那坐下..
她一直很紧张地问我到底怎样..
我就一直忍着跟她讲没事..
还假假扮成什么事都没有..
跟她开玩笑..
其实一直忍得很辛苦..
后来她看我还能笑就以为没事了..
所以我们就快点起来准备回家了..
原本她还想要去吃东西的..
可是我真的吓到了..
一点胃口都没有..
而且四肢发软..
又很冷..
所以我就骗她讲我很累不吃了..
然后她就叫她妈来载我们回去了..

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

第二次再开张~

嗨嗨!!
我来也!(我来也肉干顶呱呱......呵呵)
几百年没有来更新了咯...
感觉到它好像被父母抛弃的小孩一样...
好可怜哦...
所以就来更新一下咯...
其实咧...
也不知道要讲什么咧...
无言==
呃...
就酱啦...
呵呵...
拜拜...