choir practice again~~

Finally there was choir practice again today. We had our first practice after stop practicing for over three months at the assembly time. There was practice again because we were asked to perform at Alor Star at 15^th of November. It is a state function. Teacher Edna said it is actually the same function with the last “Anti-Jenayah” function, maybe they are too rich and wanted to make it again. The only different thing is, the coming one will be held in a stadium, but not a opened-hall of a school.

I asked Giant to join but she rejected with the excuse, lazy. She then went to ask Sunio, she was okay at first, but she rejected too at this morning with the excuse, I thought Giant is going. Well, speechless. Anyway, two new members, actually they were not really new, Ning and Ween. They were asked by Teacher Edna, so they couldn’t reject her. hoho.

I planned to go to music room at the time CheChe comes and I can meet her and say hi. But Fish had spoiled my plan, she was late today. I waited her and missed CheChe’s coming time. L But it was okay, I don’t feel much annoyed or sad or something else. CheChe seems like couldn’t affect me much already. J

We practiced until 8.45am. I didn’t feel hungry at all, just feel a bit dizzy. It was normal, I used to get dizzy when I’m singing choir. Maybe because I drank milk this morning, it was more satiety. I started with my coco book after back from choir practice. We were asked to settle in before holiday and pass it up after holiday actually. But after holiday only we started to do it. XD

Finishing coco book was really a suffering work. I didn’t do it since form 1. I have to finish up the previous years one now. Shit. And because of this, I didn’t go to eat during recess time. it was because I didn’t feel hungry too.

I felt very tired and sleepy after the coco book was semi-finished. I wanted to show Dameinv my pitiful look so that she will say some caring words or scold me of not taking care of myself well. XD Anyway, I failed to do so because I was about to go to canteen to eat when I meet her, I couldn’t follow her to her place.

I ordered a Nasi Patayap and then walked back to my place to sleep for a while and asked Fish to wait for me. The rice today was really big. I couldn’t finish it at all although I was already hungry. It was still tasty, but I had no appetite to enjoy it. I was not feeling well.

Actually I’m expecting I will be back to the powerful me after eating, but it doesn’t happen. I was still very tired after that. I kept sleeping when teacher was not paying attention at our part. I felt uncomfortable when I was singing too.

I managed to support myself until the practice finish. I went to find Dameinv but unfortunately, she was about to her class so I just stayed there for a while and then went to the pondok outside to read my novel. There was no disgusting boy there today, only Suz, Longban, Pretty Girl and Big In. I will turn about for sure if I get to know that there are disgusting boys at the pondok. I hate when there are boys. They like to make disgusting sounds towards me such as kissing sound and calling me with the stupid “A Moi~”. Just so damn.

Dameinv said that let’s meet at Facebook tonight when I went to find her just now. But she didn’t online at all. T^T

Sentimental

So down now, after reading Fish’s blog. Fish, I don’t know what to say now, I’m bad in consoling. What I want you to know is, I’M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU. And you too, Suz. I know I’m not a caring friend, I’m not a careful one on relationships. I couldn’t be the first one to realise you alls’ wrong, I’m obtuse in relationship field, but I’ll try to be more caring now. Please forgive my unconcern, I’m trying to improve this. I don’t want my friends to be sad and down, I want them to be always happy. I know I’m not be able to make you all happy, but I wish I can and I will make my every effort to make you all happy if I really can.

And the stupid line is so lag now, maybe because it’s raining now, maybe because my sister is watching drama with her netbook now. I hate it. I can’t chat well with Dameinv, she said I kept appearing offline. I can’t even load my homepage completely now. And now, Dameinv said she can’t online because of the stupid line. Shit. I must find something to cheer up myself, I hate to be in bad mood.

So DOWN and SENTIMENTAL now. I’m so sentimental recently and I HATE it.

Oh ya, something to be jot down.

Dameinv told me that she was about to bath and asked me to wait. I urged her to bath faster to prevent her from getting sick. And she said, “I noe u care bout me. sbb tu sy syg awk…”. So warm. J She really had made me as her good, close and best friend. And I started too. J

Mood

First.

My back is getting more and more pain now. I don’t know what should I do. It has started to feel pain since about one month ago. I just ignored it, thinking that it will recover on its own one day. But after about one month, the feel of pain increase instead of decreasing. I can’t bear it anymore and went to meet a doctor.

The doctor gave me some pills, expecting the pain will disappear after finishing the pills. It was okay when I was taking the pills. However, it doesn’t happen like what it should be happening. The feel of pain has worsen after I finished the pills. I feel pain when I was walking, sitting, squatting or whatever action I do. I felt tired of bearing the pain so I went to meet the doctor again just now.

The doctor doesn’t know what to do on me too but she gave me some pills to reduce the pain. She suggested me to have a X-ray scanning and a more professional scanning after that. But, do you know how much it costs for a professional scanning? The doctor said it costs about thousand. Gosh, even my mum didn’t go for a scan, she needs it actually, how can I go for it? And, the main thing is the fee. Mum said we have not much left in the bank now, I don’t want her to spend such thing on me. Even if we have the fee for that, my mum should go for it first.

The doctor said if it is the bone’s problem, it can recover on its own in three to four months. If it recovers on its own means I will be getting less and less pain but I’m facing the opposite now so it means my problem is not the bone problem. What is the problem then? Ugh. I don’t know what should I do now. Perhaps it can be okay after taking the pills, I don’t want to spend more on it and I can’t spend more on it. God, please, help me. Just help me to make it recover, please.

Second.

My E string breaks again yesterday. It’s the eighth time I think. It breaks eight times within one and a half year. I don’t know why is it happening. The others won’t face such problem, except me. Maybe it’s an omen? Implying that I shouldn’t continue to learn violin. I can’t play it well even though I’ve already learnt it for a long time. Maybe I don’t have that talent? Maybe I shouldn’t keep becoming a stubborn and continue to learn violin? The string breaks again and again to imply me to stop playing it? But I have to admit, I do love violin and music.

I cried.

Third.

It was raining heavily yesterday, with very loud thunders. My modem was hit by the loudest thunder and it died. T^T I couldn’t online yesterday and I couldn’t chat with Dameinv on Facebook!

Anyway, we sms. J I told her that I couldn’t log on my Facebook due to the death of my modem. I told her that I cried because of my E string breaks too. So she consoled me with a very touching way: “I noe you tough enough to hndle that probs..kn sy ad utk awk”. Oh my god, she said she’s there for me! So touching. So I cried again. Well, it’s now fair. I made her cried once and she made me cried once too. J hmm, it seems like we are really good friends now. a very satisfying conclusion. J

Fourth.

He said he doesn’t know me well and felt that we were just like strangers. He said he wanted to chase me again. So we are strangers now. He didn’t explain well at first, I thought what was going to happen. Luckily, it was his plan actually. Well, I’m glad that he thought this way, I’m very willing to wait for his chasing. J Hmm, does it mean that I can reject him and find a new one? Ha-ha.

finally went back to primary school!

I went back to primary school finally. We were the only batch who didn’t go back at all in these three years, feel so guilty about this. Actually I don’t want to go back because I never get straight A’s in my exams from form 1 to now. I was worrying that teacher will ask how is my result and feel disappointed because of my result.

I was with Suz this whole day. We went to find many teachers. Most of them can just call out her name but not mine. L They needed some time to figure out my name. uwaaaaa. Only Miss Teh, Puan Lim, Puan Lai and Puan Yong(feel so weird to call them this way. XD) can call out my name immediately. Anyway, at least they managed to call my name at last. Since I did so well, hmm, considered as well, in primary school, they should have remembered me. L And I realized, my brother and sister were really popular. The teachers still remembered them very well, even better than me. T^T

We went to wander around the school. All the desks and chairs were just so small! The students as well! They were so cute! XD The school had become much hi-technology than before, no chalk and blackboard, but marker-like pen and blackboard-like board. And many facilities in it had been added and improved too such as badminton court, park and basketball court.

I watched my cousin’s performance, singing, too. He was just so cute and funny! I was laughing all the way I was recording. XD He was really good, he got the first prize in the singing contest. Congratulation to my beloved cute cousin! Muack!

I gave the phone hanger to him. Luckily he liked it very much. J By the way, Doraemon’s brother kept spoiling my plan. He kept coming to talk to me when I asked him to come and get the hanger. I realized he liked to talk to me, maybe he liked me? Hahahahaha. I gave him a sweet too. I asked him what to bring for today when we were chatting in Facebook yesterday. He suggested sweets but I rejected him and said I was not close with any of the children, why must I give them sweets? He then said it was for him but I rejected him too. Anyway, I still brought a sweet for him today. Maybe he was touched? J

Hmm, chatted with Dameinv again. We chatted every day now. Our relationship had improved very much. I’m her Teddy now and she’s my Pooh. J She said she wanted to buy ice-creams and bring them to school to eat with me. And, she said she is suffering from heartburn. She is suffering in heartburn! So pity her but I can’t do anything. L I made her cried yesterday. I consoled about her ex-boyfriend finally. Just hope that she has really been okay now. Anyway, very enjoy in our interactions now. J

And, 100th post. XD

first outgoing after PMR

I’ve finally bought a phone hanger today, for him and me. It was his last year birthday present. He has given me a bracelet made from many little seashells. He bought it when he went to somewhere I think.

I said I wanted to give him a birthday present too last year. I planned to buy us a phone hanger from Massive but it kept out of stock. I couldn’t find us a suitable phone hanger as i was worrying that the phone hanger might be feminine for him and he doesn’t want to use it.

Until today, I finally get one that I think it suits us. Wish that he will really accept it.

He said he wanted to give me a present for my birthday this year too but I rejected him because I don’t know what to give him if he really did give me. I don’t want to be the one who keeps accepting another’s goods but never give.

I went Giant with Ping, Jo, Bei, Min, Ween, Ning, Yewen, Naomi and Xyn today and had a great day with them. They planned to watch Real Steel but they changed their minds at the last minute. It was ok, I’m not so eager to watch it, I just think that it is not so interested although everyone who watched it has highly recommended about it.

We did nothing meaningful actually, just wandering, playing games and we spent a lot of time in selecting and preparing the gift for Xyn too. They wanted to celebrate Xyn’s birthday earlier and actually I don’t know about this at all. It was ok, I was willing to make more friends.

I searched for a suitable frame for Miss Tan too when I was searching for the phone hanger. Unfortunately, there had no suits one. Anyway, Jo helped me to get one afterward. I didn’t see it yet, but I think it will be nice-looking.

The Retiring Ceremony of Dear Beloved and Respected Miss Tan! ♥

Today was Miss Tan’s retiring ceremony. Six of us, Suz, Jo, Ween, Hui, Wen and me, wore the different clothes to welcome Miss Tan. Suz, Jo and me wore the same clothes. The clothes were red in colour, fully red, with Eastern lace outside the clothes. The sleeves of the clothes were only lace, so they were translucent. On the other hand, Ween, hui and Wen wore the same clothes. Their clothes were red in colour too, but with some yellow inside. Both clothes were Chinese clothes.

We did this due to the request of Miss Tan. She herself asked Chinese students to welcome her. So proud of this J I volunteered willingly because it was related to Miss Tan. J Everyone looked at us when we went out from the room after changing the clothes. My friends teased me too. Ugh.I saw him, he said he wanted to show me his effort. I asked him to not to be humpbacked and pulling his steps when he was walking. Hmm, he was still humpbacked and pulling his steps when he was walking, but much better than before.

CheChe saw me when I was waiting for Miss Tan’s arrival. She smiled with me with a very weird smile, seemed like ridiculing me. Anyway, that’s a kind smile. I looked back and smiled sheepishly when I saw her smile. Ice Beauty passed by then. She smiled and said: “Wow! So sweet!” hmm, I think that’s her only comment or praising to others. Haha. But I know she said that sincerely.

Miss Tan came after about half an hour. We never blamed her but if that was not Miss Tan, that guy may be blamed by us severely. Haha. She got a flower badge from a prefect and a bouquet of flower from our civic teacher, the one who was very friend with Xiu2. Haha. CheChe was there in the whole process, maybe she was the in-charge teacher, but I think it was because she wanted to take photos too.

We walked to Dewan Samsudin with two rows of Form 3 students standing beside us, forming a human wall from canteen to Dewan Samsudin. The students called Miss Tan and said hi and bye and so on to her just like what the fans do to their idols. Haha. They called us too. I don’t dare to look at the students’ face at all, I was looking here and there but not their faces all the way.

Still, I looked up when they called my name. I just gave them a very shy smile. Syaheer and Saffa kept “acececece-ing” me when I was near to them. I kept asking them to stop. Ice Beauty was there too, she smiled. J Well, actually I quite enjoy it because I was walking beside Miss Tan in such occasion. It was the chance which the others will never had.

I was very close to Miss Tan when we were near to the hall. I accidentally hit her shoulder but just very light. Haha. Hmm, I’m so regret now of forgetting to ask to hold her hand. She will say okay I think. L

We went to find a seat after Miss Tan and the teachers entered the hall. I saw Dameinv and the floor beside her was empty so I decided to sit over there. I asked my friends to sit there. But after that only I knew, Dameinv asked my friend to ask me to sit there too. Hoho.

Fortune told Suz that we were sexy. Well, speechless. Okay, actually it was quite because the sleeves there were translucent. I laughed at her. However, Dameinv told me that I was sexy too when I met her sight later. Speechless again. We met our sight for a few times, I smiled brightly to her while she just smiled sheepishly. We talked silently with only moving our lips too. J She kept doing nothing and day-dreaming in the ceremony. I don’t what happened to her. I wanted to ask her but I had no chance.

Suz helped me to ask her to take photo with me after the ceremony finished. She rejected, maybe because I was wearing the too sexy clothes, well, it was really sexy for them. Hmm, I have to admit, I was hurt. L I thought that she had already fed up with me or I annoyed her. However, she called me with the bright way she used to be when I met her afterward. Okay, maybe she was not in mood just now. She seemed like always thinks of her ex boyfriend and feeling sad about it. I want to console her but I don’t know whether she was really not in mood because of that and, I shouldn’t do so actually right? L

We gave the flower to Miss Tan after the ceremony. All of us lined up to waiting for her arrival to hug her and talk to her. Hehe, that was Miss Tan! Our principal had no such thing when she left. Hahahaha. Oh ya, we sang birthday song to Miss Tan too when Mr. Khor said it was her birthday during the assembly this morning. Actually Miss Tan’s birthday is during Deepavali but not today. We hugged her after giving her the flower and said some touching thing. I didn’t feel want to cry at all. And at last, I managed to make her to admit that, SHE ACTUALLY KNOWS MANDARIN. Wahahahaha. So proud of this.

And I got her address too. I’m going to post her a photo frame with the photo that she took with us today. And wish her happy birthday too. We bid farewell to her when she was in the car and leaving. I felt want to cry now, in a sudden. My eyes were full of tears suddenly. I forced my tears back, not letting them to fall down. Well, it was not what I had expected. I expected I will cry non-stop in front of her. Anyway, at least my tears formed. It was the first time my tears formed because of a teacher after primary school. Even in my primary graduation ceremony, I didn’t cry.

Miss Tan, my dear beloved and respected Miss Tan, I will always miss you and love you! You will always in my mind! I love you! You are the first teacher who I love this much in my life! ♥♥♥

violin performance

It will be Miss Tan’s retiring ceremony this Thursday. Sigh, she has to go already. L I’m really not willing to see her leaves us. She is a very nice teacher. T^T

Miss Tan asked for the welcoming ritual from us Chinese students. I’m very willing to do so although we might be wearing a quite ugly suit because it is Miss Tan’s. Fish was asked to perform her violin performance on that day. I wanted to perform too. I can let CheChe and Dameinv know that I can play violin and I make my last performance to Miss Tan before she leaves us.

However, I can’t do it. I’m still very poor in playing violin and I have no time to practice it as Miss Gooi just told us about this on this Monday if I’m not mistaken. L sigh, I’m really a useless one. I had been learning violin for about one and the half year. I still can’t make any performance. I’m really bad in music, ugh, what a hurting fact. L Fish can play it well, but I can’t even play all the notes in the right way. Sighhhhhhh……down.

days after PMR

PMR has ended for a week now. I was looking forward to the days after PMR before PMR. But I’m now fed up by the days after PMR. It is just so boring. Nothing to do, no target, no motivation. My routine now is go school, back, sleep, wake up, bath, eat, play computer, sleep. It is the same every day.

Anyway, still, I did something nice in these days. I played badminton with friends crazily under a super hot sun last Thursday. As a result, I got my whole body very painful for almost two days. Playing badminton brings bigger impact than running, that’s what I can say now. However, I got it recovered in only two days. It usually takes me three to four days to recover when I was in muscular pain caused by running before. Perhaps it was because of I massaged it. Hmm, massaging is really works.

I played football and bola baling crazily again with friends during PJ periods under the super hot sun again. I don’t know why the school has to arrange our PJ periods not in the first period. Anyway, I enjoyed it very much too. It didn’t bring me big impact after playing, only a bit pain at the muscle of my legs.

I slept in class after PJ periods yesterday. It was the first time I slept in that way. I arranged three chairs in a row, put a bag at the side of the first chair to prevent me from feeling my head was going to fall XD, second bag on the seat of the first chair as a pillow and third bag as my hugging pillow. Hohoho. It was so nice. XD

I have a superb improvement in the relationship between me and Dameinv. Wahahaha~ I managed to occupy her life much now. hohohoho. I went to find her everyday once she has came to school and told her that I was very free and I accompany her. She has used to my existence now. hohoho. I had a lot of close interaction with her. I taught her Mandarin at last. She has asked for it long time ago but we don’t have a suitable time.

I stayed at her place, sitting at Short Guy’s place. He was very generous, he let me to sit there. Many teachers gave a weird look to me when they saw me sitting there. I’m now already used to their weird eyes. I went to canteen with her alone too. Their students looked at me in very weird way too. Who cares? Ignore. She purposely walked slowly to enable me to walk beside her too. Hehe, this was already not the first time.

The relationship between me and CheChe has improved too. Hoho. Oh ya, Dameinv invited me to watch movie together with her. This was not the first time she invited me but the fifth time. Wahahaha. She suggested to bring me from my house when we are about to go and send me back to my house after watching movie. Hoho.

However, the movie that she has chosen is not so nice so we decided to give up to go out in this week and planned to go to watch movie together next time when there is nice movie. I’m looking forward to it. J And, she has learnt to sms or start a chat with me first in FB. XD

All in all, the relationship between me, CheChe and Dameinv has improved very much. We did many close interactions. We are just like close friends, i mean Dameinv and me. Hohoho. And I’m already quite popular in staff room I think. Hmm, I mean almost every teacher has seen me. Oh ya, I have to say thanks to the absent of the Nice-Cloth-Looking. I won’t be dare to go to Dameinv’s place and stay there if she is there I think. She has taken a two-weeks MC as she just had appendix operation. Unfortunately, it will be holiday on the next week due to the Hari Deepavali. I will only have this week to stay with Dameinv in this week.

PMR

Thank God, PMR has ended two days ago! It was started on 4^th of October and ended on 11^th of October. I got many wishes from friends, CheChe and Dameinv. Dameinv wished me almost every day during my exam while CheChe wished me when she met me. They were concerned about my exam, not bad. Hoho.

This time, I really studied hard. Well, for me, that was hard. I must get 8As in PMR!! I can’t make everyone and myself down! I know it’s already too late to talk about this as the exam has already passed, I can’t do anything now.

Anyway, I felt quite good for PMR. It was not as hard as the others said, I think. I just feel like I was so lucky during the exam days because I knew to answer most of the question! Thanks to the wishes from you all!

Well, I can only say, internet is just so cool. We got the answer for the paper once we finished the paper. I’ve marked mine once I got the answers. I don’t know whether the answers are all accurate one. Perhaps they are.

I got 27/40 for my Malay Language Paper 1. It’s quite normal as I got almost this marks for the past year question I did too. Actually it’s considered as good compare to my previous result. For paper 2, I think I’ve done my best. The essay was the best Malay essay I ever written I think. However, I’m still worrying about it. Maybe my expectation is not the same with the examiner. PERHAPS I CAN GET A!

For English paper, I got 40/40 for my paper 1!!! It was the highest mark I ever get! I never got such high mark in the exercises that I done before! You know, it is so exciting! I got 40/40 for my English!! Wooooohoooooo! And paper 2, I felt like it was just at average level. But I think I can get A for it because I got 40/40 for paper 1!!!!! XDXD

Chinese paper, I got 37/40 for paper 1 based on the answer I got. But if I mark it based on the answer that Fish got, I got only 36/40. Anyway, it is already the highest mark I ever get too!!! I usually get about 30/40 for my previous exams. Another exciting thing! Paper 2, I think I did it at a average level only too. I wanted to write my essay better but I was lack of time. Consequently, I ended up my essay with a not so good ending. L

Science, I got 37/40. Hmm, it is a normal mark for me. I always get this mark when I did exercises.

And for Mathematics, I got 40/40!!!!! As I know, I never get 40/40 in exam!! One more exciting thing! XD For paper 2, I think I did it without any mistake. Wish that I really didn’t make any mistake. The worst thing is, we can’t get back our paper! I want to see whether I make any mistake! T~T

Geography now, I got 56/60!! I never get such high mark when I did exercises before! I used to get 10++ wrongs but I got only 4 wrongs in PMR!!! Wahahaha~ Another exciting thing~

It’s time for History. I got 55/60!!!!! Again, this is the highest mark I ever get!! I usually get 14 to 15 wrongs when I was doing exercise. I was still worrying about this. And now, I got only 5wrongs! Wooohooooooo!!!! Fifth exciting thing!!! XD

And the last one is KH. We are not be able to get any answer of KH due to we can’t even bring our paper out of the exam hall. Teachers said that the question paper is always the same. They have only a few set of questions and they will just use any one for the year of PMR. That’s why we can’t bring out our paper. I feel like it was a bit easier than the exercises that I did. But I don’t know I will get how much correct. Just PERHAPS I CAN GET A!

Conclusion is, I feel that PMR is totally not a hard thing. Or I should say, I was very lucky when I was in PMR. There are FIVE exciting thing out of EIGHT subjects. Heee. I’m quite confident now to get 8As. PERHAPS I REALLY GET STRAIGHT A IN PMR!!!!!!!!!!!! That’s my biggest hope right now! I can’t let everyone and myself down!!!!!!!!