much better?

I chatted with Dameinv just now, she said she will be engaging tomorrow and she hopes I will be there. Anyway, she has it in SP, of course I can’t make it. We haven’t gone out yet since she said we will go out anyway before this. What I want now is, we can go out at least once before she becomes PUAN because she won’t be able to go out in anytime once she’s married. And she said she will bring me to her house, I won’t be able to go her house too if she gets married. I wish to go her house before she gets married and sleep there over a night if can. Haha. But I know everything is so difficult as she told me that she might be marrying after few days she engaged. Anyway, she asked me to go her wedding ceremony. J I want to go for sure but can I don’t go alone? I need someone to go with me. L And I thought I can see CheChe there but she has to go Kelantan and she can’t go. Dameinv feels bad about this, of course me too. L

I use about one hour to practice violin everyday.

He never talked to me since holidays started.

Charmaine became the Asian TV Awards Queen yesterday while Kevin became the Asian TV Awards King. I was so happy and excited about this! Their last becoming King and Queen time was in year 2006, five years ago. I was so glad to see them getting prizes together again after five years! Charmaine was perfectly pretty yesterday. I fell into her again. Well, it’s neither the first time I fell into her nor the second but the infinite time. I fell into her every time I see her even it’s just photos. Here they were. Just so love them.

troubles

A great news, I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED MY TWILIGHT! Hahahahahahahaha~~~~ I finished it few days ago and I got the second book, New Moon, today. I was so cool, I used about half of a year to finish a novel. Haha. I’m wondering when will be my day of finishing New Moon. XD

I’ve forgotten if I had already jotted this down: I’d done the first thing in my things-to-do-after-PMR list, go to school without sleeping.

I realized I love Charmaine more and more now. I miss her so much some times. I wished to see her face to face, talk with her, hold her hands and hug her tightly. Maybe I would be lesbian? Haha. Actually I did worry about this before. But I think I’m normal cause’ I like Kevin Cheng too. I will be loving him if he’s not bald now. XD

Charmaine has a lot of news recently. Her updates in her filming period and she went to be her friend, Toby’s bridesmaid. There were so many news and photos I want to follow up, I felt that I was so busy. I wanted to reduce the time of surfing internet now to reduce the electricity fee and I don’t want to spend my whole day on just surfing internet so I would surf at evening or night. There was already much news during that time so I would be very worry that I couldn’t follow all the news and get all the photos. I would still be worrying even after finish following and getting the news and photos. It’s my mental problem I think. Ugh.

I know I should be practicing my PS skills all the time but I’m really lazy. XD But I want to be a PS expert very much because I want to see beautiful Charmaine’s photos come out from me. Actually I’m just lazy to choose photos to be PS-ed and because I was worrying about the above problems too.

I said I want to watch all Charmaine’s dramas in this holiday if I can. But I don’t think I can do it. She has over 40 dramas, I can’t buy because my family is facing money problem, I can’t waste money. I can’t finish them with my super slow internet speed too. I need a long time to load an episode. So conclusion is, I can never do that. Oh gosh, feel so bad about this. L

Charmaine is going to Singapore with Kevin tomorrow for the Asian Award. Kevin and Charmaine will be this year’s Asian TV King and Queen!! Hoho. The main point is, they are going to go together and they will be taking photo together for sure!! Huahahahaha~~~ So eager to see their photos! Alright, I know I’ve already mad. ;P

Ok, back to the real life now. Dameinv is in a relationship. She is coupling. She said they planned to marry soon. Oh my god, it’s just so unacceptable. They just start coupling but they’ve already planned to marry. Well, maybe that’s the culture of Malays but I’m just so worry about it. I’m worrying that she will be cheated by the boy. Anyway, I can’t do anything on it. Perhaps I’m just thinking too much. She’s going to be PUAN soon, feel so berat hati to let her be his. She is his after this.

Part of the reasons Dameinv did tell me a lot of things and made me as her best friend is because she couldn’t keep finding CheChe as she is already married. So, what I’m worrying is, I can’t always find her in the future too because she is already married. L I want to ask for our outgoing day before she get married but she is very busy on her marry things now. L Luckily I haven’t ask yet or she will feel I’m a child and immature, annoying as well.

Maybe I will be liking her less after she get married? Maybe no too because I’m still liking CheChe what XD And she did care of me a lot, unlike CheChe XD

I thought most of the tuition classes will be starting in December so I planned to attend tuition class for all subjects and drop those I think I can handle after school opening. But it’s not so at all, almost all of the class start next year except Modern Math so I changed my mind. I planned to not to attend any tuition class until January and learn all those subjects in school first. February only I attend for those I think it’s hard.

First, it can save money and time, at least for the first month. If I attend all classes means it needs about 400 bucks monthly and I would be very busy. I need to save money now. Second, I can know better that I’m bad in which subject and I can work harder on it. If I attend tuition class from the beginning, I would be counting on it and can’t do well without tuition class.

7th day of holidays

I was awaken by my sis when she woke up for her SPM this morning at 7.30am. I could sleep back but I woke up because I thought maybe I could meet Dameinv on Facebook. We didn’t chat for a few days already.

I met CheChe instead of Dameinv. I dared myself to talk to her with a good excuse for myself. I could say "I woke up early and I was excited now, that’s why I talked to you." I don’t dare to talk to her because she used to ask why and I don’t know how to answer her. We chatted then.

I saw a shocking news from her profile afterward. It was her status, telling that Dameinv’s sister is having lymphoma cancer now and praying that she could recover soon. It was Dameinv's eldest sister, the one who went to study in New Zealand and just came back not long ago. I was very shocked and I had frozen in front of the computer for quite a long time.

I posted a wall post on her wall this morning, before knowing this, asking when will be our outgoing day and I miss her. I deleted it then because she just said sorry for busying on her sister’s things and has no time to invite me to go out. Good, I don’t have to dream about it anymore lately. Maybe she saw the post but if she doesn't means we thought of the same thing at the same time. :)

I messaged her later to console and ask for details. I got something, she said her sister had hidden it for a long time, it’s now second or third phase already. Her sister will be going to Penang tomorrow for the chemotherapy. She said she was very sad, this sister was the one she loved the most and of course she loved me too(she said on her own). I told her I messaged her to console her actually but I don’t know how to console. She said she was worse, her sister keeps crying. She was her sister but she doesn’t know how to console her.

I’m very upset now. She is very sad because of this and I would be very sad too if it is me. And I can’t do anything to help her, not even consoling. To those who read this, please keep it as a secret. I wrote it here not to let you know and spread it. I just need a place to tell out.


Notes.
1. I had finished my great plan, not sleeping before going to school, not long before this.

2. I’m reading Twilight, it’s interesting started from the Confession chapter. XD And, how I wish I have never watched the Twilight movie before. The Edward in the novel was so perfect that the Edward in the movie could never be. I could be imagining how perfect the Edward was but not remembering the imperfect Edward in the movie when I’m reading. The Edward in the movie was not perfect at all, not even having a handsome face. Moreover, HE IS NOT MUSCULAR AT ALL.

3. He didn't contact me for quite a long time already.

4. I’m learning to use Photoshop to edit photo, I mean my Charmaine one, but my netbook can’t display the Chinese words in software. Thus, it’s a hard work for me to investigate it. Here are some examples. I'm quite satisfied with them.

last school day

Every form had to come to school like morning session today for “Hari Tutup Sekolah”. We cleaned up the school compound all the time before recess, anyway, I didn’t clean anything but played with friends. :D

I messaged with Dameinv in the school, haha. I went to find her in staff room after recess and stayed there until school finished and did nothing except helping Dameinv to do some works and teaching Fang2 Mathematics. Fang2, Jo and Fish were there too. We were all too boring but don’t want to go to the Multimedia Room, we would be doing nothing there too but we still prefer to stay with Dameinv. Hmm, maybe I should say ME but not WE. XD

Dameinv gave me the gift that she wanted to give me before this. It was 3 Ferrero Rocher Chocolate, a maybe-made-in-New Zealand Chocolate and a New Zealand animal key chain. I don’t know what animal was that, but it looked cheap, really. No offence, but it really looked cheap. It looked coarse, not meticulous at all. Her sister who went to study in New Zealand had come back lately, that was why these things were here. She said she had many key chains in her house and that one she brought was mine. Hoho.

I stayed at her place until 1.30pm, stayed about 3 hours there. hoho. Anyway, I did nothing there. She was busy, I didn’t talk much with her. CheChe was absent today. I continued my boring routine after coming back from school, started my boring holiday. L

not a good day

I went for choir rehearsal in Alor Star today. I was very worry about if I had missed anything to bring the days before it. No butterfly in my stomach, because neither CheChe nor Dameinv would be there. I wouldn’t be nervous if there is no one that I care of.

I reached school at about 6.40am. I planned to arrive earlier than this and walk to Dameinv’s place and put the map of my house on her desk. Unfortunately, I reached school late so I failed to do that. I rushed to music room then.

We started to worm up after not long. I didn’t do it as well as the best I did before. I couldn’t sing well lately, just like I couldn’t reach the pitch and I couldn’t be powerful. Anyway, it was still okay. I went to put the map on Dameinv’s desk after warming up, when everybody was about to go bus. I met her on the way so I gave it to her. I saw CheChe too, but I didn’t say hi.

We went to the bus stop beside surau and Dewan Asrama to wait to go up the bus. I saw Dameinv was busy preparing her class’s ice-cream stall. She asked me if I would be there with hope-filled before that, but unfortunately, I would not be there. L

She came and told me that she couldn’t understand the map. I explained to her. I planned to tell her that if I could come back before they go back, we could eat ice-cream together but I didn’t tell her at last. I looked at her back all the way on bus when we were going out of the school.

It took about 1hour 40minutes to reach the stadium. We arrived at 9.35am. We waited in the very hot, sauna-like stadium. They didn’t switch on the air-conditioner. Damn. We ate the food given by them before our turn to rehearsal. It was curry chicken rice. Hello, we had to sing! Ok, I know they would never be that caring.

We waited idly until 12pm something. We dressed rehearsal for almost 2 hours and went back after that, waited for 3hours and dressed rehearsal for only 2 hours. And the 2 hours were not all used to dress rehearsal but waited for them to settle the things.

I slept for a while and chatted with Fish on the bus on the way back. I sat with Fish on the bus. We chatted a lot on the bus. We arrived the school after about 1hour 40minutes too. The school was so empty, almost considered as NOBODY, only a few boys were playing football in the field and few students waiting for their parents in the pondok.

We went to wandered around the school compound. First because I wanted to see whether Dameinv is still there although I knew it was 101% that she wouldn’t be there, second because we wanted to let Fish and her guy had chance to stay together, the school was empty so they no need to worry about others would see it.

I saw CheChe was still in Bilik Mesyuarat when we were sending Suz to Kamar Syura for her pitiful debate discussion. I asked Fish and her guy to wander around on their own and I went to find CheChe. Hoho. I chatted with her in the room. She said her finger was so pain because of playing Bola Jaring, it was her first time to play it. It seemed like not every Malay girl likes Bola Jaring. J

An unlucky thing was, she had already finished her works when I was there. I couldn’t be with her long. She said she had to pick up her daughter after that and asked if I want to tumpang her car. I rejected her. Why! Why did I reject her!!!!!!!!! I missed an once-in-a-lifetime chance again!!! I would never have such a chance to sit her car anymore!!! Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa L Both of the most regretful things that I had done were all because of CheChe! First time was I met her in Tesco but I didn’t hi with her, second time was this! Ughhhhhh!!! T^T

I slept after coming back from school and went online after bathing and enjoying dinner after woke up. I uploaded my self-taken photo on the way back from the car just now. And do you know what happened after that? CheChe liked my photo!!!! Oh my goodness, just so flattered! This was the first time she liked my photo! (the photos which I took with Dameinv were exception) I tagged her and said something like “why do you want to like my photo, shyshy”(XD) but unfortunately, she didn’t reply.

Another shocking thing happened again after that. I saw the notification of Dameinv liking my photo! Oh gosh….It was the first time she liked my photo too. So shy…XD Her comment was more flattering. “miss you my tedy”, was her comment. Wahahahahahaahaha~~ She said so in public….so shy….and, so happy! XDXDXDXD hohohohoho~~~ The only bad thing was, she didn’t on after I asked her. huhu L

Tomorrow will be the formal performance, hope that I can sing well! Oh god, let me to sing well please, I want to sing better! All the best to you, Lim Wan Pei! Good luck and do your best! Same to all the choir members especially my Fish, Suz, Ween, Ning and YWen! Semangat!!!! XD

Oh ya, he said it was only a joke. Damn, how could he wish me to die even though it was only joking!!! I told him I was really affected by it much and asked him to settle it on his own. I don't want to talk to him and be eyes to eyes with him before he settles it! Hump! (wish that I can really do that)

Hari Raya Haji

Maybe I should ask him, no way, I don’t dare. Just wait until the school reopens and see his behavior okay. But, what should I feel toward this before I get to know his thinking? Alright, just ignore it first. Still, my heart will be held tight suddenly when I saw his Facebook icon. Still, I will feel hurt when I think back of the conversation. I hate.

Watching my Charmaine’s drama, Forensic Heroes II, again. I just so love my Charmaine, and her lover in the drama, Ivan(Kevin Cheng). I love to see them being together. Just so love. I think I’m already crazy in this. I’m going to watch it again with laptop later. Then print screen the scene I want and save it and see it whenever I want. Wahaha.

Dameinv was so gatai today. She said “miss u babe” to me. Haha. I gave her back a kiss emotion too. haha. Just take it as the reparation of her kiss emotion that day. XD

Went to Tesco and had a KFC lunch with my family this afternoon. I walked together with my brother and we were holding hands and walking very near to each other, just like what a couple would do. Damn, all the others must have thought that we were couple! Anyway, I have already used to it. Everyone was looking at us, because of my brother’s look. I used to ignore all their eyes. And, I’m his girlfriend on the other hand. Damn.

Oh ya, I dared myself to ask CheChe about the reason she was absent for school few days ago. She went for a bengkel at Langkawi. And my reason for asking her about this was, “nothing, just curious.” XD

Oh ya II, belated Hari Raya Haji to my friends. Shit, i forgot to wish Dameinv and CheChe and all them. I have totally forgotten about this thing.

2nd November 2011

Today was much better, there was a normal number of students attended today. CheChe was absent again, don’t know why and I didn’t ask Dameinv or her when she was online.

We registered to go for a forum about health today. It was at Dewan Putra. No other reason, just because we were too boring to stay at school. It was not bad to go outside. We went there at 8.30am. Suz, Fish and me went to help Miss Gooi to clean her room before that. We often went to find her lately and offered her our help because we were really too boring. As a result, I was now much closer with her.

I get a bag of things from there. There were a few poster, a pack of Mihun, an apple, a bun, a bottle of mineral water, a notebook and a pen. Not bad, went to play and got free things. I did nothing there, didn’t listen what they said at all. I was sleeping, day-dreaming and chatting all the way.

We went to eat after back from there, it was neither recess time nor back time, but the teachers just allowed us to go out. After that, I pranked Ping. I was not going to prank her actually. I wore her watch when she took it off at canteen, just for fun actually. She thought she lost it then so I planned to continue it. She looked at my hand for a few times, but she never realized it. I thought she has already realized it, I never thought that she was just that BLIND.

We went back to Astaka then. She searched for it at her bag. I went to show her again. I purposely raised my hand in front of her and doing nothing, assuming that she would realise it. Again, she didn’t see it. She went back to her class to search for it after that. I called her and said that Dameinv asked us to go to the another way, raising my hand with the watch and turning it. It was obvious that I was doing things in a weird way and talking nonsense, she didn’t realise.

She back from her class then, with a disappointed face. Of course, her watch was with me what. She searched at her bag again. I went near her and squat down and showed out my hand and asked if she got it. She turned and looked at my hand’s side. I thought she has finally seen it, but she stared it for some seconds and raised her head and told me, nope. Oh my goodness, could she use her eyes since she was opening it!?

And she finally saw it, when I showed her my hand again. We all then laughed at her. She seemed like a bit angry, sad and maybe shocked. I don’t know, but I know she was unhappy because of this. Hey Ping, I know mia, I just don’t want to stop suddenly because the ambience would be very weird if I stop laughing suddenly and stare at you. Hmm, here are some cool satirize words that I told her, “which button to click to make your watch invisible?”, “what’s the use of you opening your eyes?”, “can you see me?”. It was just so funny but I know you were angry, Ping, sorry. You will forgive me right? Heeee.

I then went to be with Dameinv. She wanted to give me chocolate to thank me for helping her and said that we could eat it together. Eat ice-cream as well. But she didn’t bring chocolate or ice-cream as I told her that I have things to do and she thought we would not be meeting. It was okay because I don’t expect we would be having time for that too. We promised that we are going to meet at 12pm to eat chocolate and ice-cream tomorrow.

It was choir practice then. I was in good mood, no reason, and I did well. I would be very very good mood if I can really eat chocolate and ice-cream with Dameinv tomorrow as I knew that we are having choir practice from 11am to 1pm tomorrow afterwards.

I met Dameinv after choir practice and I told her. She was disappointed too, I expected that. We chatted a while before she went to her class. She would always smile or laugh sheepishly in front of me. I was appeased by our interactions today but actually it was only the normal interactions. I don’t feel want to message her or Facebook with her. I don’t want her to be annoyed by me, although I know she won’t feel so actually but I would still worry about that.

Unexpectedly, she was online today and hi with me. We chatted for a while only because her line wasn’t well and she couldn’t access Facebook. She messaged me then. We chatted for a while again, she wanted to bring chocolate tomorrow. Hope that we will be able to eat it together tomorrow. She called me meimei and called herself cheche. Well, I can be her meimei, it’s okay. J She said goodbye to me and said that she was already sleepy. That’s her must-do. XD But today was abit different, she added a kissing emotion after her words. Haha. I realized it afterward, if not, I’m going to give her back too. J

01.11.2011

Today was Fish’s birthday, so happy birthday to my beloved Fish~ love you forever and friendship forever! ❤ There were only six chinese students presented today, me, Fish, Suz, Ping, Fang2 and WHui. All the others were absent, ALL. I don’t know why, maybe they colluded with each other and planned to absent together. Why I don’t know all of this? But it’s okay, I won’t really absent even though I knew. J

Today was almost the same with yesterday. The five periods before recess were all free, we can do whatever we want including sports. We ran around the field like yesterday and the result was the same too, we just ran about ¾ of the field. I could finish it if my stupid stomach didn’t feel pain I think. Done nothing after that and I slept for almost an hour in class. I couldn’t sleep long if I lean my body over the desk, my elbow would be very pain. So, I arranged the chairs in a row like what I did last time and slept for teen minutes. I felt very tired recently.

The time was wasted by wandering, chatting, playing computer, reading novels and sleeping. Soooooooooooooo boring. Damn. Miss Gooi’s place has been settled by the boys, by using the idea given by Fish. We then went to the Bilik Akses to play the computers there. I thought the room is already neglected and nobody will be going there. I was very surprised when I pushed open the door and saw two boys there. No internet access in the room, so what are the use of the computers presented there?! Even with internet, no Facebook, MySpace, and etc things are allowed. So what is the use of the internet available there?!

CheChe was absent today. A bit affected when waiting for her to come at assembly time but then back to normal after that. Dameinv came late today, she said she has things to do, she should be coming earlier, so that I can stay with her longer. XD I went to her place and helped her to jot down and sum up the score and stayed for almost an hour there. I finished the things she asked me to do in just a short time, she was surprised. It’s nothing actually, just because it was related to Math and her. She make-up today and she was shy when I asked her this.

She wanted to eat lunch with me after finishing the jobs. But unfortunately, it was already the time for me to back. She looked sad, me too but I didn’t show her.

The Retiring Ceremony of Dear Beloved and Respected Miss Tan! ♥

Today was Miss Tan’s retiring ceremony. Six of us, Suz, Jo, Ween, Hui, Wen and me, wore the different clothes to welcome Miss Tan. Suz, Jo and me wore the same clothes. The clothes were red in colour, fully red, with Eastern lace outside the clothes. The sleeves of the clothes were only lace, so they were translucent. On the other hand, Ween, hui and Wen wore the same clothes. Their clothes were red in colour too, but with some yellow inside. Both clothes were Chinese clothes.

We did this due to the request of Miss Tan. She herself asked Chinese students to welcome her. So proud of this J I volunteered willingly because it was related to Miss Tan. J Everyone looked at us when we went out from the room after changing the clothes. My friends teased me too. Ugh.I saw him, he said he wanted to show me his effort. I asked him to not to be humpbacked and pulling his steps when he was walking. Hmm, he was still humpbacked and pulling his steps when he was walking, but much better than before.

CheChe saw me when I was waiting for Miss Tan’s arrival. She smiled with me with a very weird smile, seemed like ridiculing me. Anyway, that’s a kind smile. I looked back and smiled sheepishly when I saw her smile. Ice Beauty passed by then. She smiled and said: “Wow! So sweet!” hmm, I think that’s her only comment or praising to others. Haha. But I know she said that sincerely.

Miss Tan came after about half an hour. We never blamed her but if that was not Miss Tan, that guy may be blamed by us severely. Haha. She got a flower badge from a prefect and a bouquet of flower from our civic teacher, the one who was very friend with Xiu2. Haha. CheChe was there in the whole process, maybe she was the in-charge teacher, but I think it was because she wanted to take photos too.

We walked to Dewan Samsudin with two rows of Form 3 students standing beside us, forming a human wall from canteen to Dewan Samsudin. The students called Miss Tan and said hi and bye and so on to her just like what the fans do to their idols. Haha. They called us too. I don’t dare to look at the students’ face at all, I was looking here and there but not their faces all the way.

Still, I looked up when they called my name. I just gave them a very shy smile. Syaheer and Saffa kept “acececece-ing” me when I was near to them. I kept asking them to stop. Ice Beauty was there too, she smiled. J Well, actually I quite enjoy it because I was walking beside Miss Tan in such occasion. It was the chance which the others will never had.

I was very close to Miss Tan when we were near to the hall. I accidentally hit her shoulder but just very light. Haha. Hmm, I’m so regret now of forgetting to ask to hold her hand. She will say okay I think. L

We went to find a seat after Miss Tan and the teachers entered the hall. I saw Dameinv and the floor beside her was empty so I decided to sit over there. I asked my friends to sit there. But after that only I knew, Dameinv asked my friend to ask me to sit there too. Hoho.

Fortune told Suz that we were sexy. Well, speechless. Okay, actually it was quite because the sleeves there were translucent. I laughed at her. However, Dameinv told me that I was sexy too when I met her sight later. Speechless again. We met our sight for a few times, I smiled brightly to her while she just smiled sheepishly. We talked silently with only moving our lips too. J She kept doing nothing and day-dreaming in the ceremony. I don’t what happened to her. I wanted to ask her but I had no chance.

Suz helped me to ask her to take photo with me after the ceremony finished. She rejected, maybe because I was wearing the too sexy clothes, well, it was really sexy for them. Hmm, I have to admit, I was hurt. L I thought that she had already fed up with me or I annoyed her. However, she called me with the bright way she used to be when I met her afterward. Okay, maybe she was not in mood just now. She seemed like always thinks of her ex boyfriend and feeling sad about it. I want to console her but I don’t know whether she was really not in mood because of that and, I shouldn’t do so actually right? L

We gave the flower to Miss Tan after the ceremony. All of us lined up to waiting for her arrival to hug her and talk to her. Hehe, that was Miss Tan! Our principal had no such thing when she left. Hahahaha. Oh ya, we sang birthday song to Miss Tan too when Mr. Khor said it was her birthday during the assembly this morning. Actually Miss Tan’s birthday is during Deepavali but not today. We hugged her after giving her the flower and said some touching thing. I didn’t feel want to cry at all. And at last, I managed to make her to admit that, SHE ACTUALLY KNOWS MANDARIN. Wahahahaha. So proud of this.

And I got her address too. I’m going to post her a photo frame with the photo that she took with us today. And wish her happy birthday too. We bid farewell to her when she was in the car and leaving. I felt want to cry now, in a sudden. My eyes were full of tears suddenly. I forced my tears back, not letting them to fall down. Well, it was not what I had expected. I expected I will cry non-stop in front of her. Anyway, at least my tears formed. It was the first time my tears formed because of a teacher after primary school. Even in my primary graduation ceremony, I didn’t cry.

Miss Tan, my dear beloved and respected Miss Tan, I will always miss you and love you! You will always in my mind! I love you! You are the first teacher who I love this much in my life! ♥♥♥

days after PMR

PMR has ended for a week now. I was looking forward to the days after PMR before PMR. But I’m now fed up by the days after PMR. It is just so boring. Nothing to do, no target, no motivation. My routine now is go school, back, sleep, wake up, bath, eat, play computer, sleep. It is the same every day.

Anyway, still, I did something nice in these days. I played badminton with friends crazily under a super hot sun last Thursday. As a result, I got my whole body very painful for almost two days. Playing badminton brings bigger impact than running, that’s what I can say now. However, I got it recovered in only two days. It usually takes me three to four days to recover when I was in muscular pain caused by running before. Perhaps it was because of I massaged it. Hmm, massaging is really works.

I played football and bola baling crazily again with friends during PJ periods under the super hot sun again. I don’t know why the school has to arrange our PJ periods not in the first period. Anyway, I enjoyed it very much too. It didn’t bring me big impact after playing, only a bit pain at the muscle of my legs.

I slept in class after PJ periods yesterday. It was the first time I slept in that way. I arranged three chairs in a row, put a bag at the side of the first chair to prevent me from feeling my head was going to fall XD, second bag on the seat of the first chair as a pillow and third bag as my hugging pillow. Hohoho. It was so nice. XD

I have a superb improvement in the relationship between me and Dameinv. Wahahaha~ I managed to occupy her life much now. hohohoho. I went to find her everyday once she has came to school and told her that I was very free and I accompany her. She has used to my existence now. hohoho. I had a lot of close interaction with her. I taught her Mandarin at last. She has asked for it long time ago but we don’t have a suitable time.

I stayed at her place, sitting at Short Guy’s place. He was very generous, he let me to sit there. Many teachers gave a weird look to me when they saw me sitting there. I’m now already used to their weird eyes. I went to canteen with her alone too. Their students looked at me in very weird way too. Who cares? Ignore. She purposely walked slowly to enable me to walk beside her too. Hehe, this was already not the first time.

The relationship between me and CheChe has improved too. Hoho. Oh ya, Dameinv invited me to watch movie together with her. This was not the first time she invited me but the fifth time. Wahahaha. She suggested to bring me from my house when we are about to go and send me back to my house after watching movie. Hoho.

However, the movie that she has chosen is not so nice so we decided to give up to go out in this week and planned to go to watch movie together next time when there is nice movie. I’m looking forward to it. J And, she has learnt to sms or start a chat with me first in FB. XD

All in all, the relationship between me, CheChe and Dameinv has improved very much. We did many close interactions. We are just like close friends, i mean Dameinv and me. Hohoho. And I’m already quite popular in staff room I think. Hmm, I mean almost every teacher has seen me. Oh ya, I have to say thanks to the absent of the Nice-Cloth-Looking. I won’t be dare to go to Dameinv’s place and stay there if she is there I think. She has taken a two-weeks MC as she just had appendix operation. Unfortunately, it will be holiday on the next week due to the Hari Deepavali. I will only have this week to stay with Dameinv in this week.

PMR

Thank God, PMR has ended two days ago! It was started on 4^th of October and ended on 11^th of October. I got many wishes from friends, CheChe and Dameinv. Dameinv wished me almost every day during my exam while CheChe wished me when she met me. They were concerned about my exam, not bad. Hoho.

This time, I really studied hard. Well, for me, that was hard. I must get 8As in PMR!! I can’t make everyone and myself down! I know it’s already too late to talk about this as the exam has already passed, I can’t do anything now.

Anyway, I felt quite good for PMR. It was not as hard as the others said, I think. I just feel like I was so lucky during the exam days because I knew to answer most of the question! Thanks to the wishes from you all!

Well, I can only say, internet is just so cool. We got the answer for the paper once we finished the paper. I’ve marked mine once I got the answers. I don’t know whether the answers are all accurate one. Perhaps they are.

I got 27/40 for my Malay Language Paper 1. It’s quite normal as I got almost this marks for the past year question I did too. Actually it’s considered as good compare to my previous result. For paper 2, I think I’ve done my best. The essay was the best Malay essay I ever written I think. However, I’m still worrying about it. Maybe my expectation is not the same with the examiner. PERHAPS I CAN GET A!

For English paper, I got 40/40 for my paper 1!!! It was the highest mark I ever get! I never got such high mark in the exercises that I done before! You know, it is so exciting! I got 40/40 for my English!! Wooooohoooooo! And paper 2, I felt like it was just at average level. But I think I can get A for it because I got 40/40 for paper 1!!!!! XDXD

Chinese paper, I got 37/40 for paper 1 based on the answer I got. But if I mark it based on the answer that Fish got, I got only 36/40. Anyway, it is already the highest mark I ever get too!!! I usually get about 30/40 for my previous exams. Another exciting thing! Paper 2, I think I did it at a average level only too. I wanted to write my essay better but I was lack of time. Consequently, I ended up my essay with a not so good ending. L

Science, I got 37/40. Hmm, it is a normal mark for me. I always get this mark when I did exercises.

And for Mathematics, I got 40/40!!!!! As I know, I never get 40/40 in exam!! One more exciting thing! XD For paper 2, I think I did it without any mistake. Wish that I really didn’t make any mistake. The worst thing is, we can’t get back our paper! I want to see whether I make any mistake! T~T

Geography now, I got 56/60!! I never get such high mark when I did exercises before! I used to get 10++ wrongs but I got only 4 wrongs in PMR!!! Wahahaha~ Another exciting thing~

It’s time for History. I got 55/60!!!!! Again, this is the highest mark I ever get!! I usually get 14 to 15 wrongs when I was doing exercise. I was still worrying about this. And now, I got only 5wrongs! Wooohooooooo!!!! Fifth exciting thing!!! XD

And the last one is KH. We are not be able to get any answer of KH due to we can’t even bring our paper out of the exam hall. Teachers said that the question paper is always the same. They have only a few set of questions and they will just use any one for the year of PMR. That’s why we can’t bring out our paper. I feel like it was a bit easier than the exercises that I did. But I don’t know I will get how much correct. Just PERHAPS I CAN GET A!

Conclusion is, I feel that PMR is totally not a hard thing. Or I should say, I was very lucky when I was in PMR. There are FIVE exciting thing out of EIGHT subjects. Heee. I’m quite confident now to get 8As. PERHAPS I REALLY GET STRAIGHT A IN PMR!!!!!!!!!!!! That’s my biggest hope right now! I can’t let everyone and myself down!!!!!!!!

22th of September

There was no PJ period again today, stupid lazy teacher. She doesn’t even wear the sport suit! Shit! Short Guy was absent too, they said he went to Pantai Merdeka, what will he do there? Run and run and run to keep slim? Hahahaha.

As there was no teacher, we stayed in our class and did our own stuffs. Actually there was a teacher when it was Moral period, but the teacher didn’t ask us to go there so we just ignored her. Hehe.

Ice Beauty talked about colours today. She asked us whether we like grey colour. Most of them said no. Why? Grey looks nice what, I like it. And Ice Beauty likes grey colour too. She added on, “You will look nice when you are in grey shirt, especially Chinese, they look so sweet.”(something like this.) All Chinese girls said my name once Ice Beauty finished her sentence. I was wondering why. Ice Beauty looked at me and smiled.

I met Ice Beauty again after I went to toilet after school. I smiled to her from far and greeted her. She smiled too. She asked how do I go back with smiling face. I told her it is my mum’s van and she repeated, “oh, your mother.”, with smiling face too. I was wondering why again. I asked her why but she didn’t answer me, maybe she didn’t get it. Hmm, she had her childish side too. J

I waited Dameinv at somewhere she couldn’t see me when I saw she was in front of the surau. I met Ice Beauty’s car before I met Dameinv. I was so diffident. Haha.

I pretended that I didn’t see Dameinv and looked at the building or car far there concentratedly until I didn’t realise her but actually I saw her first. She used her books in hand and waved to me. We went near and chatted. She used her books to hit my thigh too, I mean the pocket part. The action looked like we were a very good friend, hoho.

I accompanied Transparent to staff room afterward. First, she wanted to search for Julia. Second, I wanted to see Dameinv. J We failed to meet Julia and I went to asked Dameinv about where was the place of Julia. Hoho, chatted again. She looked very nice today, with the blackish grey baju kurung.

There is Konferensi Waris on the coming Sunday. It will be our last Konferensi Waris in Form 3. I should have appreciated it and see Cheche and Dameinv more on that day. However, my mum is coming early on that day. I will not be able to wander around and see them already. LOh ya, Cheche was absented today.

stayed back

20^th of September

Today have to stay back for English night class replacement. We skipped our class on last Wednesday. I told Suz that I wanted to go to toilet and she said she wanted to meet a junior too so I told her that we meet at Astaka afterwards then.

I saw Dameinv’s back once I got down from Astaka. I gave up to go to toilet immediately and went back to take my things and told Suz to meet in canteen. I wanted to walk with Dameinv. I caught up her later. She took away my cheese cake that I held on hand. However, she was cut by others before she managed to ask me what that was. It is always like this. She will be cut by many people on the way she goes to somewhere. They are all no manners one, they cut people’s conversation unlike me, I won’t cut her whenever she’s talking even though I’m actually the one being cut. Huahaha~

She put my Tupperware of cheese cake on her hand which was holding form 1 Science SPS. Good, I had excuse to not to leave her then. But she handed it back to me after not long. Maybe she thought that she will be talking long and she doesn’t want me to wait her. Never mind, I will still wait for her. Hehe.

We continued our conversation after she finished talking with the student. Luckily she didn’t ask why did I wait for her. J She finally asked what was that and I showed her the words on the Tupperware and told her a bit loudly that, “don’t you know to read?” Hmm, seemed like very bad. Haha. She shook her head when she saw the word “cheese cake”. She seemed like doesn’t like cheese cake L but I like it very much.

I forgot to bring Eastview when it was Ice Beauty’s “night class”. I talked about Long Ban with Suz during her time. It looked like I was not a good girl, don’t want to listen to her. Actually I’m not, teacher!! I just wanted to listen to Suz’s story and I didn’t bring the book what, so I can’t pay attention on it is just a normal thing, right? Haha.

It rained when we were going to back. I took off my socks to prevent it from getting wet. So, I wore my black shoe without wearing socks. It was really pain! The inner part of the shoe is so rough, it attrited my foot so much! I will never wear the black shoe without socks anymore!

21^st of September

I stayed back to give tuition to Fang2 today as the previous Sunday was a holiday. I need to replace for her and for me myself. J

Same, stayed back until 4pm. I met Dameinv and Cheche before school finishing and said hi. Ate nothing but just only a small sardine bread but I don’t feel hungry.

Dameinv was in the first lab of the second floor, Fang2 and me went to see her. We started our tuition class at Kamar Syura after eating so that we can see Dameinv when she finished her class and comes down.

She doesn’t see me when she came down from upstairs and went to Block Gigih. I didn’t call her too. Suddenly, she bent down and picked up something from the ground. I thought that was a thing that fell down from her just now but I didn’t see anything falls down from her at all.

After 0.5 second, a food wrapping paper flew up and went into the dustbin beside. She picked up the rubbish on the ground and threw it into the dustbin!!! How can she be this nice!!! There will be no one doing same thing as her except our retired Madam Principal! Even Madam Principal will ask students to pick up, but she picked it up on her own!! Sigh, she was really a super nice one.

She stopped and turned back after reached the plants area as a teacher called her. She looked over us from the plants when she was talking to the teacher. She tilted her head and said hi to me when she saw me there. The action was so cute! J She didn’t care whether there were any others there and said hi with me in such way! Huahahaha.

She called my name loudly after talking to the teacher but before the teacher left. I raised my head and heard she said: “go back!” with smiling face. Haha. So cute. J

She came down after about 20 minutes, earlier than what I expected. Fang2 was doing her work so I went late. I only talked to her when we were near to staff room, just awhile. I don’t dare to run to chase her because I was worrying that she will think I’m abnormal.

We went to continue our class at first class of block Cekal. It was the coolest room among six classes, if I’m not mistaken, there. Unfortunately, there were student’s bags there, meaning we couldn’t stay long there because there will be classes there.

Dameinv came near to the class after not long, she said she wanted to go to close her car’s windows because it was going to rain. I wanted to talk more, but she was cut again. The stupid Form 1 students came to talk to her when I was talking to her, no manners. Don’t you know that interrupting people’s conversation is not a good habit?

She seemed like wanted to talk to me after talking to the students but she didn’t at last. We went out of the classroom when she was about to go back and because the class’s owners were back. She asked why did we come out again. I told her that we have no places to go, I thought that she will offer the places beside her in staff room to me then I can go near her but she didn’t. She asked us to go to library and said that there was air-conditioner there. I turned down her with excuse, lazy.

We went to the old labs that were currently Form 6’s classes to have our class then. The lab looked dusty and ghastly. Anyway, I have to say, the fans there functioned well. Haha.

I went to the new lab to see Dameinv after finishing the tuition class. I saw a cat just outside the lab which Dameinv was using. I looked at it and it looked at me for quite a teen seconds. I gave up to go over there at last. I went to the other side of the lab and hoping it will not be there anymore when I reach there. Luckily, I saw it went upstairs when I reached there. It stopped at the middle of the stairs and looked down to me when I was there. I looked at it for a few seconds again and walked away as quickly as I could. I don’t dare to run as I thought it will chase me. As a result, I saw just Dameinv’s back. L shit you, little cat.

The Retiring Day of Our BELOVED Madam Principal

Yooooohoooooooooooo~ She was leaving at last! Tata~~ don’t ever come back again! We will miss you~~~ wahahahahaha~

The best thing she ever done to us is, we could have a half-day-school because of her retiring ceremony. We were asked to go to Dewan Samsudin at 10am but the ceremony started at 11pm. Shit, do you know that how pain my butt was!! You know, I really did plan to bring cushion or something like that to school for my butt. I gave up at last because it will be very funny if I really did.

I went to sit at the front because I thought Cheche and Dameinv will be sitting at the front. UNFORTUNATELY, they were sitting at back!! The last row of seats! T~T is this fate….. hng! i saw Dameinv closed her face with both her hands all over the time the Malays were reciting their prayers. I thought who was taking her photo so she wanted to close her face with her hands. And it was Giant!! They were sitting at the back too so they got to have interactions with Dameinv. T~T Dameinv asked that where was I and Giant said don’t know but she acted like I was absented. As a result, she SMS me!!!! It was the first time she sms me first! Wahahahaah~~ She searched for me and even sms me! Now only I know she was that caring of me, touched. Hahahahaha~

There was choir performance in the ceremony. Do you know that how affected was I when I saw the people who wore choir suit on that day?! Teacher said the ceremony will be held on 25^th of September. As it is near to PMR, we had given up to take part. And now, the ceremony was on 19^th!! If I know it will be on 19^th, I will take part for sure! T~T The PA system was very bad, the bass was set too deep and the background sound too. We couldn’t listen clearly to what they sang at all including Xio Du Bak’s singing. Damn it.

Many of the teachers cried when our Madam Principal left. Dameinv seemed like cried too. Madam Principal bid adieu to us and I bid to her excitedly too! She’s leaving, I MUST say goodbye to her! Huahahaha~

I talked to Dameinv after the ceremony. She asked me to go over her when she finally saw me. She was surprised and asked that why didn’t I go for the choir performance. I told her the whole thing and she smiled. She said that she thought that I was absented and asked where I was because she didn’t see me. She seemed like wanted to know where I am badly. Huahahahaha, I have to admit I like the feeling like this.

She took away the bottle that I was holding on my hand to see. The action was so cute, just like a little curious baby. We went out to see madam principal went away then. She was standing in front of me, there was quite a distance between us. She saw me when she turned. She likes to look at me with fully attention and smiles. I don’t know why but I know I’m happy about this. Ho-ho. But I will swift away my sight if I met her sight for too long, I don’t know what expression should I give her so I will just swift away my sight. T~T She can look at me without feeling scare or else, but I have! She earns a lot but I lost a lot!

I bid adieu to Cheche and Dameinv when I was about to go back. Cheche was talking to Dameinv concentratedly so she didn’t realise me while Dameinv said ZAI JIAN to me. she really likes Mandarin.

Finally

We took photos with Cheche the day before their Raya holidays. I asked the photos from her afterwards but she told me that she was processing. However, there was nothing on her profile after that at all. I asked for the second times not long after. She said she was processing again. I told her that her “processing” is very suspecting. Anyway, she finally uploaded all (I think) of the photos she took before including ours. I saw her baby girl. She was much bigger now, she grew very fast! Her baby was so cute, especially the one that she was wearing a cute baby tudung! As you know, I LOVE babies! Hua-ha-ha. :D

I saw few photos of her and Dameinv. She likes her very much I think. She held Dameinv’s hand almost every photo they took. She chatted with Dameinv on this day too. I saw all of their conversation. They were talking so funny to each other. Ha-ha. Not bad, they are good friends! I complained on the photos I took with her as the photos were BLURRED one and I looked so ugly! She said I must blame the cameraman then. It was Paru! Shit him! Spoilt my photos with my Cheche!!!!!

I finally met her as usual after so many SPECIAL days. We, fish and me, stood at Dewan Terbuka and looked at the photos there. Actually we had already watched it for many times but we can still watching it again and again. Ha-ha. I purposely acted like I didn’t see Cheche when she came down from upstairs, planning to go after her and say hi. However, she stopped at the corner and waited and called for me unexpectedly! I went towards her and said hi. She asked, “how about it? Is it okay?” I haven’t realise what she meant and asked what did she meant. She said it was about the photos she uploaded yesterday. I thought she wouldn’t talk about it and would just walk away. And I was still worrying what should I talk to her the day before it.

She had talked to in Facebook these days, but she seemed like doesn’t willing to talk to me. I thought she wouldn’t talk to me first. Yeah~ huahahaha~

just to update it

Had a lot of interaction with Dameinv due to Suz’s request to Dameinv. She asked her to be the leading teacher of Chinese debate team. She just said okay. She said they will be very pity if she doesn’t want to go. Hey, if you go means you will be pity okay. How can, how can I leave her alone for 5days. There will be all Chinese and she, the only Malay. She told me she was scared and worried that they cannot communicate to each other, scared to be bullied as well. Luckily she didn’t go at last, I was relieved.

I went to stand very close to her when Suz asked her for the first with no reason. And maybe because I talked to Fang2, I stood away from her. She then pulled me back to her side. Hoho. We were very near to each other, touching each other. I was so regret for didn’t hold her hand. T~T.

She offered me some kuih raya. I rejected her immediately. After thinking, I asked her whether the kuih is made by her. She said yes and I accepted it immediately once she said YES. Haha. Don’t know she realizes something or not.

I talked about her ring on her ring finger. I saw her status after went home, saying that she had broke with her boyfriend on 3th of September. Gosh, I talked about the ring right on the next day she had broke with her boyfriend. She must be very sad. I felt so sorry.

And today, thank to Suz, I apologised to her. Suz, THANK. I’m sure that you know what I mean. You better pray that she will not know anything about why am I apologising. I will tell her on my own, if she asked.

Fish was finally back today. I told her about what had happened in these two days.

Fish and I told Suz that Short Guy wanted to meet her. That was my idea, to play a trick on Suz and, see Dameinv again. Mission failed as the Short Guy was not there when Suz went to find him.

ADY asked about who wrote something on board that day, I’ve totally forgotten about I’ve wrote something. I was just asking what was her talking about and what words she meant and ignored her after that. After few minutes, I remembered I’ve written something on board! Hoho, she saw that. Hee, ignore her.

Ice Beauty asked about ADY today in English period, she said that she was emotional, I was the first person who agreed with her agitatedly. I behaved like I was very hate her, and I did. Ice Beauty is now knows that I HATE HER I think.

Well, I have almost NO interaction with Cheche these days. Hmm, feel a bit calm about this. I think I like Dameinv more now, but I dreamed about Cheche more, don’t know why. I can rarely dream about Dameinv and my Charmaine.

Charmaine is coming to Penang on 2^nd of October and I will be having PMR on 4^th of October. Damn it, why it’s such time. Anyway, I want to go too, to see my perfect, beloved Charmaine. Mum didn’t oppose very much as I told her I will be studying very hard in this month. This is my prerequisite. I’m finding way to go now. Perhaps I can really make it.

25th of August

Hohoho. Today was a good day.

We were finally backed to our class. And because this morning was raining and the assembly was delayed, I was able to go to toilet when I saw Cheche came. Today I went with Fish. Cheche was very pretty today. She wore a light green tudung and baju kurung, at the bottom of the baju kurung is white in colour and folded. She just looked very nice and pretty and temperament today. I like today’s her so much!

I went and Hi with her and Fish praised her that she looked so pretty today. She smiled happily and thanked her in a cute(actually it’s funny) way. Her “thank you” was high pitch at the end. I saw her coming down from upstairs so I immediately ran towards toilet as I was actually already far away from toilet. I met her, she was looking at me and smiling once she saw me. I asked why and wished her Selamat Hari Raya. First mission completed. Hoho.

We had our assembly at Opened Hall as it was ………….. outside. We finished our assembly first than the Malays, Malays went to their pray hall to have their own assembly, but they were almost finished too actually. The Malay students greeted the teachers one by one at the door of the hall. I stood over my class and looked over there to search for Cheche since I can straight away see the hall from my class. I saw Cheche asked a student to take photo for her. She sat politely at the staircase of the hall, just like she’s still a young single GIRL. I kept saying that she was cute and pretty and etc.

She came out afterwards and walked towards our class’s corridor to go to the staff room. Suz suggested me to take photo with her but I denied her with reason, they were doing those things among the Malays and I’m a Chinese. However, she ignored me and told Cheche that I wanted to take a photo with her. She agreed immediately and excitedly unexpectedly. I never thought that she would have such response. Consequently, I ran excitedly towards her and took photo with her. She asked others to take together too but I blocked them and said I wanted to take first. So, I had a photo with only her and me. Hee. :D Fish and Suz came after that and I joined too. We had a photo altogether. I forgot to ask her to upload the photos to Facebook so that I can get them.

I went out to wander around with WHui at Civic period as there was no teacher entering. I put my head close to the window of the staff room in order to see Dameinv or Cheche who were maybe inside. But when I turned my head after found out that the curtain of the window was let down and complaining about it, I saw Dameinv was right in front of me. I was shocked but I immediately gave out my bright smile to her. Shit, she saw me put my head close to the window, the stupid look.

We then U-turn and walked after her to see her more. She saw us when she was at the corner. She smiled. She was blocked by a giant size teacher that walked behind her, I couldn’t see her at all from back. I mumbled and complained about it. She then changed her place with the giant size teacher, I could see her now. Hoho, I was so lucky. Heee. Or maybe she purposely changed that? Ha-ha, day-dreaming. XD I forgot to wish her, shit.

It was Ice beauty’s period after that. We helped her to clean her room, but actually I didn’t do anything at all, just playing around. I wished her Selamat Hari Raya and few of my Malay friends too.

I wandered to staff room to meet Dameinv in order to wish her, and wish him too. I saw him and Dameinv as well, I wanted to call him but he was too far away and behind him was followed by a senior. So I gave up and went to find Dameinv. I met Suz after that, and I saw Dameinv and Cheche was inside of staff room, right in front of the door but didn’t step out. I don’t dare to wish her like that but Suz just opened the door and wished them, so I followed too. I wished Dameinv and chatted awhile with her. She asked me to go to her house to eat the Malay cakes. I know she was just kidding so I kidded with her too. I asked her house address from her. Ha-ha. Cheche looked at me from the beginning but didn’t say anything. I forgot to ask her to upload the photos again.

They then went out to go to their pray hall and we were walking in front of them. I saw Pacak was at the Star Path. I pulled Suz towards him to wish him. She struggled and I pulled her and her bag so that she won’t run away. I think Cheche and Dameinv saw that. I failed to pull Suz near to Pacak as she was stronger than me, so I shouted him from far and told him that Suz wished him Selamat Hari Raya. He smiled and said thanks. Hey Suz, say thanks to me too. Quickly! I know you are happy. Ha-ha.

I saw Cheche’s car on my way back because today no need to fetch students. I thought that I could see whether where was her house. But she went to Kulim Landmark Centre after that!!! Shit! I thought I could confirm her house’s location! T~T

Oh ya, going to Genting Highland this Sunday with my family! I never went there properly with my family before so I’m very looking forward to it! I remember my last time to Genting Highland is 3 years ago, on my Graduation Trip. I never went there anymore after that. I’m going to play everything there including all those that I couldn’t play before this due to my height and weight problems! It rain a lot these two days, I bet there will be very cold. Oh my god. You know, I always prefer hot than cold. He’s going to spend two days of his holiday there, it was just so coincidence! Maybe we will meet there. Ho-ho.

24th of August

Didn’t meet Cheche today, just saw her back from far for about 2 seconds. She stood at the front when assembly. I thought she will be at the back so I went to the back. T~T but actually she was at in front. As a result, I didn’t see her in the whole assembly.

I didn’t see Cheche but I saw Miss Tan. She was over somewhere where I can totally see her and she can totally see me too. And I needed to see her as I wanted to see Cheche. This was the first time I felt that she was so uneasy to look at. I didn’t dare to look at her, I looked here and there but not her side. I was worrying that I will meet her sight and she would laugh at me. Luckily, we didn’t meet each other’s sight.

Still, my butt felt pain of sitting on the floor, although it was covered by a thin layer of carpet. Doraemon said she called me from outside when she saw Dameinv was over the Samsudin Hall. I didn’t hear anything at all, but she said she shouted at me twice. Maybe because it was crowded that time, the afternoon sessions were coming out from the assembly. T~T Next time I must have caring to everything that happens around me.

I wandered the school in order to see Cheche or Dameinv again. I failed to meet both of them. Fang2 was no more lucky. She said I will meet them and even walk together with them. I told her that I won’t desperately. And last, I really didn’t see them. Actually I was still hoping to see them because I need to object what Fang2 said then only I can meet them. I objected her today, so I hoped. And I disappointed too. It seems like I have to observe Fang2 more to ensure that I can see Cheche or Dameinv more.

I uploaded a new profile picture of Facebook lately. The stupid abnormal Ady came and liked me photo and commented on it, saying “I’m pretty, I looked prettier when I was teaching someone, the pretty one will always looks pretty no matter how she takes her photo and etc.” She even liked every comment of my friends that praised me pretty. Oh my god, I don’t know what she wanted to do. I ran away as I don’t want to meet her last time, she saw it, but she still doing these things to me. I don’t know what she was thinking. Damn her.

Holiday is around the corner, and I’m feeling unhappier and unhappier. I can see neither Cheche nor Dameinv during the holiday. And it means the PMR is getting closer. I haven’t study yet. I decided to study many times, but I was attracted by the computer and TV. So I just studied a little bit of KH only. Ugh. Actually I’m going to Genting Highland in this coming holiday, I should feel happy and I did. I’m hoping the days to come, but I’m worrying that we need to spend a lot and I may have nothing to do there besides playing those expensive things. I know we are spending and the saving is getting lesser. I just hope I can grow up into and adult tomorrow and have a good job so that I can face the money problems. It does affect me much. I can’t continue to spend just like I don’t know everything. Even though I can’t help anything, I think I should be taking care of these things already in the age like me.

Oh My God!!!!

We had our lessons at screening room again. First period was PJ and we didn’t have it because it’s Ramadhan month now. Can’t run for a whole moth is really suffering! I laid on the floor again and planned to sleep. But the floor is too hard for me as I’m very skinny. I felt pain at every part that was contacting with the floor. And I was worrying that the principal may pass by so I didn’t do that.

ADY needed to invigilate today so she didn’t enter out class and we had out class in science lab. Woohoo. Fang2 and I went out to wander around to meet Dameinv and Cheche. Jo followed us too. We met Dameinv in front of staff room. She wore back her pure cloth. XD. I Hi brightly to her and she replied me too. She pointed at my 8As card when she was near to me, smiling brightly and looked excited. I asked her why and she just answered me: “red”. I was wondering why was red colour making her so excited. And, the card was hanging in front of my body, the part between shoulder and breast, right side. She just simply pointed at it, not just pointed from far but she touched it. Anyway, I don’t care if that. I’m just surprise and felt happy that she was actually not a conservative one. You know, it is always hard to communicate well with a conservative one, alright, for me.

We went back to lab after going to toilet. I turned my head backwards for no reason suddenly and I saw Cheche. Ho-ho. Is it doomed? XD. I saw me, I Hi with her excitedly with hand waving and then she turned away. She was shocked I think and then turned back to looked at me again. XD. I was very happy as I met both of them and FANG2 IS REALLY THE LUCKY ONE. I laughed in a super idiot way and walked in a funny pose. I heard someone’s footsteps sound behind me and I was hoping that was Dameinv or Cheche so I turned. Oh my god! It was Miss Tan! Oh my goodness! Ugh! Shit! She saw all my actions! And, she was laughing at me! Ugh! Where to put my face! My image was totally spoiled! Uwaaaaaaaa. T~T.

She was walking behind of us as it was needed to reach our destination. I kept mumbling and complaining about that on the way. She kept laughing at the back I think. She then went up to her sister’s car and went back. I saw her before she was disappeared, and she was looking at me and laughing! Oh my god………………….. Shit……………………. How am I going to face her when I meet her in the future……………………………….

Sunday!

Cheche used to be late lately. Her car was not there yet when we went toilet at about 7.15am as the assembly will be started at 7.20am. Alright, I have to admit, the assembly won’t be started at 7.20am sharp. It will be a bit late. There were 3 teachers standing quite far in front of the toilet and talking to each other. It was quite many there, I mean the passer by. There was not used to be crowded. Fish called me and said FortuneYo was calling me. I turned to confirm with the teacher. She was not looking at me at all, she was not calling for me. Shit! Luckily nobody heard or saw that or I’ll break you into pieces Fish!

It was assembly time then. We had our assembly outside of the hall we used to use today because there will be having exam inside the hall. Chairs were put at the front for the teachers. I went to stand at the front in order to see Cheche. I could be able to see Ice Beauty too if the stupid plant was not right in front of me. Cheche then came at 7.45am, she was late, very late. I wonder why. The seats were already full, thanks god. She had to sit at the small stone bench and I could see her whole body include face with that. She wore a blue set today, beautiful. She satt in a cute way with her chin putting on her hand and her hand putting on her thigh. Her face was compress by her hand. It looked so cute! Ha-ha. Unfortunately, she went back after about 5 minutes I think. she just stayed there briefly for 5 MINUTES! T~T She looked so nice today but I could only saw that for a short while! What a waste!

Our class was changed to the 3^rd Screening Room due to the exam that was taking by afternoon sessions now. It was quite interesting because we didn’t have to stay in certain pattern as we were in classroom. But it was annoying too because there was so hot and there had no chairs! So my pitiful butt had to stay pain all over the day. We even laid on the floor there to sleep when there was no teacher. Of cause, the floor was covered by a big carpet.

I ran out of the classroom and totally ignored the teacher when YWen and WHui told me that Dameinv was somewhere near there. I could only saw her back when I was there. She wore a gray set today. No more the childishness and pureness that she had before, but added with mature look and adult’s pretty. Overall, I’m still like her, her changes didn’t affect anything.

Plus called me when she saw Ice Beauty was over outside. I stood out abruptly and looked at outside. She was going back. I saw her wore a old pattern sunglasses with gold thin frame around the glasses. The sunglasses looked so funny! Alright, I have to admit, I laughed at her. :P

I have to stay back as I need to give tuition to Fang2. Her Math was not so well, can be considered as bad, err, very bad. That’s why we teachers(ha-ha) were needed. Actually I stayed for other reasons too, I can see Cheche and Dameinv. I saw Cheche when I went out with Fang2 to search for History teacher(for her, and Dameinv for me XD). She was playing Facebook. She was so dare! She turned her head when I passed by and she saw me. I Hi with her but she ignored that, didn’t notice that maybe. Anyway, I saw her. We went almost the whole school to search for those we wanted to get except Hostel Hall because it was so far away.

We did the same thing again after school and after eating. And we got nothing too. So, we went back to Astaka to take the books and going to start our tuition. When I raised my head after taking books from my bag, I coincidentally saw Dameinv right in front of me in the staff room! We then walked to the latter part of staff room to meet her as her place was over there. We waited there but we didn’t get her. We then gave up and walked back to Astaka. And I coincidentally saw her right in front of me in the staff room again! We Hi with each other. Shit! We shouldn’t walked to the latter part of the staff room, she never walked to there at all!

We met ADY before that and told her that we were having tuition. Damn it! Why I had to meet her! We started our tuition in the first classroom of Block Cekal I think, it was empty. I fell asleep when Fang2 was doing her works and I was studying my KH. :P We went back at 4.05pm and walked around the school compound to meet Dameinv. We met her at Block Gigih at last. She was invigilating the exam. She saw us and walked towards the window which was broken and had no glass. I thought she wanted to Hi with me but actually she went there because the student there called her. Anyway, she kept peeping at us when she was explaining the things to the student. She peeped sheepishly at us for about 3 times within the few seconds she was explaining. She was holding a exam paper I think and blocking half of her face when she was doing those things. However, I can still see her face completely. XD

We walked to the other side after that and saw her again. I smiled brightly, it looked idiot I think, to her. But she just smiled without showing her teeth to me, I know she was controlling herself to not to smiled brightly to me because she was invigilating. So cute! XD

All in all, today was a good day. And I love Fang2 because I can see Cheche or dameinv or even both every time I was with her. She is really a lucky one. :D